I was really pushing for a good year, since the last 2 were horrendous overall.  But so far:

-An amazing person died (way before he should have)
-My grandma doesn't know who I am 9 times out of 10
-I've had a cold every month so far (ugh)
-I've had the flu twice (I never get the flu!)
-I've had 5 migraines
-I found out I did NOT get accepted into the Dental Hygiene program for Fall semester
-I put $10,000 into my IRA accounts... and have lost almost all of it already (can we say RECESSION?!)
-I got my first speeding ticket, on a road trip to MO (17mph over!)
-People have stolen 6 of my food items at work, despite the name labels
-After never ever breaking a retractable lanyard (the kind for ID badges), I broke 3 in a week!!!
-Without health insurance, I had to get immunizations, booster shots, TB tests, and blood work
-Without dental insurance, I just had a filling come out! grrrr

I know there's more, but those are the highlights.  It seems like whenever I really strive to be positive, it all comes crashing down in my face.  Can I please have some good luck now?!

I think I have decided to be done with xanga... I have 3 journals and it's just kind of pointless to me now.

I made a new one before I decided to stop xanga, and I was just going to put my poems and songs in it that I write.  So far I've just put two poems in there, but I'm sure I'll blog in it too.  So feel free to read that blog, or not.  And maybe I will still update this once in awhile.


Here's my new blog:

http://apathyindreams.blogspot.com/


Enjoy.

I am tired of certain people treating me like some naive girl lost in her own problems.  I AM NOT AN IDIOT!


Basically, I have certain friends who regularly ditch me for certain people, and make up different lies each time.  But they forget I talk to other people who they don't lie to, so I find out (I don't even ask!) where they really were anyway.  Is it that much to ask to have people tell me the truth for once?  Well, apparently so.


I am sorry I work 6 days a week and go to work when you get off of work.  So when we plan a day to hang out and they promise me to keep that day open (at least part of it) for me, obviously I will get aggravated after the THIRD week in a row of them ditching me!  And it's always last second, so that no one else is even around to make plans with...


Which leads me to my other issue.  This past year or so, all my close friends are suddenly too busy, at least for me.  I will see endless facebook posts, etc talking about hanging out with others, even picture albums posted online of weekly, some with daily "outings' with friends... and yet they keep telling me they are too busy for ANYONE at all.  Right.  And the best part is when certain people keep telling me "well, can't you call in sick one day at work so we can hang out?"  Um no, sorry, but I always have this day off, so what about hanging out on this day some week?  "Oh, well I'll probably be hanging out with my boyfriend.  Sorry." 


I am sorry too.  Sorry that as a usually single (and contently so) friend I automatically get put on the backburner to every "taken" friend.  Don't get me wrong, I am all about them spending sufficient time with their new boyfriends/girlfriends at the beginning, but if you can make time for them 7 days a week, you sure as hell can make time for me 1 day in 6 months, for a few *#%$^ hours.  I am so sick of my close friends doing this to me.  I literally have no one to hang out with anymore because all my close friends have basically done this to me, and the rest are just too busy with work/school, or our schedules conflict.  I honestly am starting to feel like I have no friends left. :(  (And the one good friend who hasn't "abandoned" me lives far far away)